Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Coming to the end

I have just 8 treatments left. I'm not sure what will follow. But I'm trying to make as much progress as I can before I start the next stage. I am hoping to be walking without any assistive device in about 3 weeks. Progress is coming quickly now. So exciting to be making big steps now. Next Friday is my last day of radiation.

Monday, March 19, 2012

What am I doing

Tomorrow will mark the halfway point in my radiation treatments which is something to celebrate but on the other hand it is no where near the end of my fight. It occurred to me today that even if radiation does everything they hope it can it won't be enough to save my life. The best result radiation will bring is to prevent the tumor cells from growing back in the area that was just vacated. It is frustratiing to think how much discomfort I'm going through for what seems like a stalling tactic. But I have said numerous times throughout this that I'm not a doctor and so I shouldn't jump to conclusions. Just wanted to let everyone know that while I may not make it through all this it won't be for lack of effort on my part. But everyone needs to realize that I can do everything right and probably still won't win this fight.
At some point I am going to have to stop treatment and focus in getting to live my life. I'm not there yet. But this radiation process has me thinking about when that time will come.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

I'm at home for about a week now. haven't been sleeping all that well still. Leg is in spasm pretty frequently. Plus I started radiation one of the side affects is that the brain swells and unfortunately Your skull does not expand therefore i get massive headaches. I am pretty tired all day. Because I do PT in the morning And radiation in the afternoon. I'm up for visitors but am just text before you come. I am at my aunts house in chartwell.

Thursday, March 1, 2012


I am getting out today. Not headed back to my parents. There's construction going on there. Going to my aunts house in Severna Park. Visitors are welcome. Just call or text beforehand. Hoping to get some sleep. i havent had a solid nights sleep. In like 2 weeks. Looking forward to a regular bed. And beIng able youse the bathroom with out an escort.